Pray

Hi guys. I just wanted to write a little. My head has been in a million places the last month or more. For the last little while I've just been incredibly discouraged, and I haven't been able to put my finger on it. It seems to be a mixture of anger, dissapointment, fear and pain. I can't tell you how much my heart aches at the loss of the child that Lesley and I were going to have. I can't think about it without feeling a hole in my chest. I can't stop thinking about my family. I want to call all of you every day just to say hi and tell you all how much I love you! With Papa not doing well and with all that's happened with Uncle Mike and that whole situation, I just feel at a loss. My head and my heart just feel empty. And I figured out why I felt so empty. Its because I've been living my life for me. I'm a selfish jerk most of the time. I'm not a very good person, and I'm a very bad husband. These aren't things that I'm proud of. I want your prayers. I want to live so badly. I want my family to be strong. I want my family to be happy, and the only way for that to happen is for me to rest completely in the arms of my Jesus. I want Him so badly, I just don't really know how to get there. So please pray for me, that I would grow to know Him better, and that He would for once be real in my life, not just an emotional experience or a sidenote. That he would be my ONLY goal and my greatest desire. Thank you. And I love you all.

Siblings!

These are just some pictures of Micah and Alyssa






they are just so cute!

Trip!

So we're home and returning to life as usual. the first day back was tiring. micah slept late and i got up to clean and get caught up with our world. we arrived home on monday at 5 am! not as long as a trip as going down to florida but still long.
we had a great time with everyone though it was stressful times. family is just growing way more important to us. micah sees just how much he misses everyone when he does't get to see everyone but maybe once or twice a year, maybe even longer. well here are some fun pictures of florida with mom dad and the grandparents and some from chattanooga with alyssa and zac


aunt inez, granny windham, micah, papa john, granny grace, and me


mama beating me at pool.


at the lard can cookout


uncle alvin cooking everything together in the lard can.


everything sitting out, it was very good.


aunt alice, uncle jimmy, aunt edith, uncle lonnie, aunt bessie, uncle alvin, and papa john


micah and granny grace


micah and his papa


papa came to visit granny toole


micah's cousin brittney


me with trinity


brady being all boy and climbing the swing


micahs na brady on the bed

new job and travel plans

today was the first day of micah's new job. he's getting paid salary which is nice, means his pay is steady. a friend of ours a lady about my mom's age has a heating business and needs some more regular help and heard he didn't have a job and just asked he wanted to work with her. it was a very nice proposal and much needed. i'm hoping thing will do well there.
and all next week we will be gone in florida and tennessee wherever it takes us, to see papa and mom and dad. and probably alyssa and them i'm hoping at least. i'm very excited to go and see family. and it's very important to micah so makes even more better. it will be a long trip driving about 20 hours or so but all worth it.

Happy 4th!

I hope everyone's independence day celebration is all wonderful and safe, don't have a arm or anything blown off. we don't have much of any plans besides just spending time together because we both have work off today and tomorrow. we'll just be relaxing and enjoying each other. lazy days are great! we love you guys.