next appointment

well my next appoint is scheduled for right after we get back from our christmas trip to tennessee and seeing family. it's the 30th at 10. very exciting

Appointment

yesterday i had my doctors appointment and i was very nervous. up till this point i was not really excited about the pregnancy because i didn't want to be disappointed. but i got to have an ultrasound done. and the baby is exactly the size it's supposed to be and we got to hear the heartbeat and though it doesn't look like much and it's very small we got to see it. it was so exciting. the doctor told us that coming in that day because of our last pregnancy a repeat was about 30% but after hearing the heartbeat and having an ultrasound the chances went down to about 7%. that means there still is a chance but i like the sound of it dropping so much. o and they even printed some pictures out to show to us. and we now get to show you our baby roberts on the way. due date July 28th

this one shows the size the plus marks indicate the end of the baby and in the lower right hand side it tell how long it is

this one shows the heart beat pulses in the bottom half. and the upper right hand corner shows the beats per minute. it's so cool that the heart is beating already and just how fast things develop. it's amazing

praise God things went well. we are blessed and totally excited.

Christmas Time

christmas is getting closer and we've been starting to pick up the Christmas spirit. we bought our very first tree ever. very exciting it was very inexpensive which makes it even better. it already has all the lights on it. we just don't have very many ornaments on in. my godmothers over the years have given me some so as of now those are all we got. lol o well just means our collection can grow over the years.

even casey is getting into the spirit

we're all very excited to be spending this Christmas with so much of our family.

Pray

Hi guys. I just wanted to write a little. My head has been in a million places the last month or more. For the last little while I've just been incredibly discouraged, and I haven't been able to put my finger on it. It seems to be a mixture of anger, dissapointment, fear and pain. I can't tell you how much my heart aches at the loss of the child that Lesley and I were going to have. I can't think about it without feeling a hole in my chest. I can't stop thinking about my family. I want to call all of you every day just to say hi and tell you all how much I love you! With Papa not doing well and with all that's happened with Uncle Mike and that whole situation, I just feel at a loss. My head and my heart just feel empty. And I figured out why I felt so empty. Its because I've been living my life for me. I'm a selfish jerk most of the time. I'm not a very good person, and I'm a very bad husband. These aren't things that I'm proud of. I want your prayers. I want to live so badly. I want my family to be strong. I want my family to be happy, and the only way for that to happen is for me to rest completely in the arms of my Jesus. I want Him so badly, I just don't really know how to get there. So please pray for me, that I would grow to know Him better, and that He would for once be real in my life, not just an emotional experience or a sidenote. That he would be my ONLY goal and my greatest desire. Thank you. And I love you all.

Siblings!

These are just some pictures of Micah and Alyssa






they are just so cute!

Trip!

So we're home and returning to life as usual. the first day back was tiring. micah slept late and i got up to clean and get caught up with our world. we arrived home on monday at 5 am! not as long as a trip as going down to florida but still long.
we had a great time with everyone though it was stressful times. family is just growing way more important to us. micah sees just how much he misses everyone when he does't get to see everyone but maybe once or twice a year, maybe even longer. well here are some fun pictures of florida with mom dad and the grandparents and some from chattanooga with alyssa and zac


aunt inez, granny windham, micah, papa john, granny grace, and me


mama beating me at pool.


at the lard can cookout


uncle alvin cooking everything together in the lard can.


everything sitting out, it was very good.


aunt alice, uncle jimmy, aunt edith, uncle lonnie, aunt bessie, uncle alvin, and papa john


micah and granny grace


micah and his papa


papa came to visit granny toole


micah's cousin brittney


me with trinity


brady being all boy and climbing the swing


micahs na brady on the bed

new job and travel plans

today was the first day of micah's new job. he's getting paid salary which is nice, means his pay is steady. a friend of ours a lady about my mom's age has a heating business and needs some more regular help and heard he didn't have a job and just asked he wanted to work with her. it was a very nice proposal and much needed. i'm hoping thing will do well there.
and all next week we will be gone in florida and tennessee wherever it takes us, to see papa and mom and dad. and probably alyssa and them i'm hoping at least. i'm very excited to go and see family. and it's very important to micah so makes even more better. it will be a long trip driving about 20 hours or so but all worth it.

Happy 4th!

I hope everyone's independence day celebration is all wonderful and safe, don't have a arm or anything blown off. we don't have much of any plans besides just spending time together because we both have work off today and tomorrow. we'll just be relaxing and enjoying each other. lazy days are great! we love you guys.

Apartment pictures

So i posted some pictures here's a link to it. pictures of apartment! enjoy our abode. we do i mean there's some annoying things to living here but for the mean time it's ours and our home.

Drill

Micah for the last couple of days and for the next week is at drill with the national guard. he has been in Lincoln but will be going to Hastings for more training today. it is sad being apart but it isn't for long and we got some good news while he was there. because of micah's health profile he probably will never get deployed to iraq. i like the sound of that! and also micah has put in for a transfer. the paper work for it should be done by october 1st so anytime after that we could go. and where he put in a transfer for you may ask to Chattanooga, TN. micah wants to be with family and of course how can i object i would love that as well. so i guess preparations have started to get us ready to move and live somewhere else. the only thing is micah's unit now isn't much happy with all the paper work they've had to do for him but o well we won't be staying there. o but i am very excited to get an army id sometime soon here.

1 month and move in

So it's offical we have been married one full month, today! it's been great it's was kinda stressful getting all the paperwork done and name changed on everything and made ours not just singular. but after all the running around and stress of getting things done we got to relax and enjoy just being with each other. well for the most part but now we're getting ready to move again!

we went in to sign the lease on our apartment and we are moving in this coming weekend! it's earlier then we originally planned but we just wanted to be in our place as soon as possible. We need to get a couple of furniture pieces like a table and maybe a couch. but i'm sure things will work out. we're looking at going to offutt air force base in omaha and looking there becuase everything there is tax free and may be cheaper for us. i think it's fun that only some people can get in to shop there makes me feel important. i just want to get everything of our own and have a comfortable place to life and have people visit us and have fun. nothing too extravagant but nice.

APARTMENT!

We got approved yesterday for an apartment. it's two bedrooms, incase someone wants to come visit us *wink wink*, and 1.5 baths it's not huge but it's big enough for us. I'm very excited to move in and to have a space of our own. looking at houses didn't work out but someday it will. God has different plans for us and i'm ready to see what they are. Pray the moving goes well we move around june 1st. and we'll be there at least 6 months because that is the lease length they do. we're getting everything packed up well. super duper excited.

Look alike

We took this picture to look like a favorite we have of micah and his cute mom. hope you like

Wedding!

Hello Everyone, for those of you that were unable to come to our wedding we wanted to share our special day with you. and let you know that we love you all. it was just a nice intimate wedding, with close friends and family. there were a million pictures taken but i just wanted to share highlights and the good ones.


Dancing in the Taylor's kitchen, where we had the wedding...


My best friends minus one... Andria and Breana... they were huge during our day!


Sitting while my friend Breana does my hair... it was beautiful...


Redoing makeup... getting very excited


Putting the veil in... I'm a Bride!


The wedding party... erin , me, micah, and josh...


looking at eachother around a tree


a nice black and white of us...


almost the same in color...


full length of the two of us... just married yay!


My new sister and i... whom i love dearly


the roberts side... sorry i didn't have a good one that included Zac... not the i don't love you zac... its just that all the ones with you in it someone was always messing it up, eyes closed, weird faces, messing around... lol alyssa, me and micah and josh



schlake side... my mother, yvonne, erin, and my brother jeff and his wife marj


and finally the people that made this day possible... lori and dale taylor and pastor tom burns... thanks you you guys

Surgery and Dog

Well, this morning was my surgery, a DNC. just here to say that everything went well. I was nervous going into it because i have never been in the hospital or had a surgery before, lucky i know, and also never had an IV in, so it was bit of an experience for me. going under anesthesia is interesting i don't really remember much of anything accept being very tired for quite a long time and still a little now and waking up to nurses and falling back to sleep after the procedure. It must've been hard for micah sitting, waiting to hear how things went and to see me, it almost broke my heart to see him just wanting to take me out of the hospital and not have to be poked and proded. he is amazing though and in an effort to try and cheer me up he tricked me into thinking he had to meet with with someone in his unit and instead handed me a puppy. it's a small black and tan chihuahua. the dog i've always wanted. he's absolutly the cutest things in the world. i couldn't help be cry when recieving this dog, which we named casey lee in memory of our lost one. it's from the one i love most in this world and can't wait to share my life with. Thank you all for your prayers they meant a lot and surely were heard today. I have some antimicrobial/antibiotics to take for a couple days and have to meet with the doctor in 2 weeks, but for now everything looks well and it shouldn't interfer and complicate any future pregnancies. so we cn try again after 6 months. I love you all very much. now i thought i'd share some candid shots of casey.

dishes and such and retrospective thoughts

hi guys. just some pictures to show you a little bit of what we got using money we received for our wedding. they were all very nice things and we are very thankful for the provisions. lol. we will not use them until we have our own place but they were all what we wanted.

thank you all for your prayers and thoughts for lesley and i. things have been hard, but i know that there is a higher reason for things that we can not see and will not understand in this life. my heart feels broken. i'm not sure i have ever ached like i do now, but i have so much still to be thankful for that i can not stay down for long. but october the 3rd will always be a day of rememberance. and even though we lost, the child accomplished many things in our relationship that could not have happened otherwise. it gave me the heart of a father and a desire to be a man of God. it gave lesley a deep desire to be a mother and to care for things of her own and ultimately, it brought lesley and i back to eachother. and for that we are forever thankful. thank you for your prayers. we are getting married on monday the 21st of this month. we wish that our whole families could be present but we are planning to renew our vows sometime in the next year. so we will give plenty of notice for that as that will be our large event and we would like to have everyone there.

lesley will be going on monday for her operation. i believe its called a dnc. but i'm not sure. it will be hard but we are glad for the closure. the doctors said that they didn't see anything abnormal with the test done yesterday. pray that all goes smoothly on monday at 9:30 am. we should be out around 1 pm that afternoon.

here are some pictures of the things we got.

much love to everyone.

micah and lesley