next appointment

well my next appoint is scheduled for right after we get back from our christmas trip to tennessee and seeing family. it's the 30th at 10. very exciting

Appointment

yesterday i had my doctors appointment and i was very nervous. up till this point i was not really excited about the pregnancy because i didn't want to be disappointed. but i got to have an ultrasound done. and the baby is exactly the size it's supposed to be and we got to hear the heartbeat and though it doesn't look like much and it's very small we got to see it. it was so exciting. the doctor told us that coming in that day because of our last pregnancy a repeat was about 30% but after hearing the heartbeat and having an ultrasound the chances went down to about 7%. that means there still is a chance but i like the sound of it dropping so much. o and they even printed some pictures out to show to us. and we now get to show you our baby roberts on the way. due date July 28th

this one shows the size the plus marks indicate the end of the baby and in the lower right hand side it tell how long it is

this one shows the heart beat pulses in the bottom half. and the upper right hand corner shows the beats per minute. it's so cool that the heart is beating already and just how fast things develop. it's amazing

praise God things went well. we are blessed and totally excited.

Christmas Time

christmas is getting closer and we've been starting to pick up the Christmas spirit. we bought our very first tree ever. very exciting it was very inexpensive which makes it even better. it already has all the lights on it. we just don't have very many ornaments on in. my godmothers over the years have given me some so as of now those are all we got. lol o well just means our collection can grow over the years.

even casey is getting into the spirit

we're all very excited to be spending this Christmas with so much of our family.

Pray

Hi guys. I just wanted to write a little. My head has been in a million places the last month or more. For the last little while I've just been incredibly discouraged, and I haven't been able to put my finger on it. It seems to be a mixture of anger, dissapointment, fear and pain. I can't tell you how much my heart aches at the loss of the child that Lesley and I were going to have. I can't think about it without feeling a hole in my chest. I can't stop thinking about my family. I want to call all of you every day just to say hi and tell you all how much I love you! With Papa not doing well and with all that's happened with Uncle Mike and that whole situation, I just feel at a loss. My head and my heart just feel empty. And I figured out why I felt so empty. Its because I've been living my life for me. I'm a selfish jerk most of the time. I'm not a very good person, and I'm a very bad husband. These aren't things that I'm proud of. I want your prayers. I want to live so badly. I want my family to be strong. I want my family to be happy, and the only way for that to happen is for me to rest completely in the arms of my Jesus. I want Him so badly, I just don't really know how to get there. So please pray for me, that I would grow to know Him better, and that He would for once be real in my life, not just an emotional experience or a sidenote. That he would be my ONLY goal and my greatest desire. Thank you. And I love you all.

Siblings!

These are just some pictures of Micah and Alyssa






they are just so cute!